question...?

gosh! it has been a while and almost forgotten that i've got a blog sitting on this site. looked for it this morning and found out that the one and only post i had was in february!! well, i guess the blogging bug has bitten me again....and hopefully it'll stay. never much of a person who writes down or typing out his thoughts.

seems like everybody would have some kind of blog somewhere in the cyberworld. i've wondered and still wondering, what's with the craze of blogging? what happened to the "dear diary" thing? is this supposed to be some kind of "IN" thing nowadays? i might be wrong, but aren't these thoughts of mind supposed to be personal or even private? either i don't get it or i'm just totally "outdated"...*sigh*

guess the blogging bug bitten me again after reading the day-by-day event of one friend who just passed away (rest in peace bro). another thing would be just thought it might be an avenue to vent out what's all crammed in my already cluttered mind. :-) oh yeah....whoever that's reading this....brace yourself for huge amounts of profanity and curses but i'll try my best not to. :-)

hmm....how am i suppose to even start this.....????? la la la la la la la la la la la...sing a smurfy song....la la la la la la la la la la la....sing it all day long.... *lost*

oh well, think this will be it at the moment. probably get back to this again later.......



ok...back again...but then not that i've got like writing juice overflowing...*sigh* more mental block....uuurrrggghhhh!! AARRRGGGHHH!! i need PROFESSIONAL HELP!!! *sigh* where do i even start cursing here.............

well, managed to do some side line thinking while busy running around and toiling away on the computer....man....work is so dependent on the e-mail and cyberworld....wonder how are things going to work IF one day there's a total crash on the internet...hmmm....back to the dark ages? just has some network and server problem...guess there are some virus running around again.

oh yeah...back to what i was initially rambling about, why blog and not diary.....?? anybody got an answer to this?

Saturday
lets see....this might be backdated, but what the heck...weekend.....wish it could have been longer. had a great time hanging out with some new friends and long lost friend playing tennis....man...it has been AGES since i actually swung my tennis racquet. weather wasn't really on our side...guess the skies took pity on us and gave a window of about half an hour to swing around a bit and whack some balls. it was then that the sky decided that we had enough and off we go. went back to Munster's place and had some nice warm soup...mmm....yummy..... :-) (thanks for the wonderful wholesome soup)

after that went went back to office to meet up with the dogster. chilled out while Munster got amazed with the "magic" of video editing. hehehe....never thought that it all happens like that huh Munster? it's not that don't believe what you see on tv...but more like don't think that all that you watch on tv is done on a BIG FAT budget with super high-tech machines. :-)

anyway, dinner wasn't too satisfying. sent munchy back and home sweet home i went. got home and finally had me shower....ooo....nicey nice.....weather was all so nice and comfy too.....gawd! how i wished for a nice warm cuddle. laid down in bed and decided that i was a little restless, so decided to join dogster and some other friends for "glow-in-the-dark" bowling. sure had a mental block after being in there for 10 mins.....reminds me of those la la ah beng techno clubs.... played 2 miserable games and i think i really suck in bowling.

left midvalley and headed back to subang for mamak. nothing much but just chit chat with the whole bunch of people i went bowling with. Dogster sure had an appetite....imagine, gobbling down 2 roti bom at 1 something in the morning!!

got home and still felt restless, though tired. somehow i needed to sleep....to off to dreamland.....zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Sunday
aaaahhhh.....sunday...bloody sunday.....woken up by an sms from my boss....GAWD! why the hell can i not be left alone for the weekend??!!!! aarrrggghh!! thought i could ignore her sms, but hell no.....she just had to send the same sms twice...2 pages long!! somehow, just had to reply it to stop her from sending the same messages again and again. that's when the mind became active and that was it....had to get out of bed. how i wish there was some kind of switch that i can just turn my brains off and go back to sleep.

well, crawled out of bed and did the usual morning routine. made a cuppa coffee while washing up. after the first sip of coffee, body's all awake. time to get the house cleaned........hmm....should i mop the floor...should i clean the kitchen...should i rearrange the hall.......oh well, ended up doign all of the above. damn tiring but sure feels good with the new living room arrangement. couldn't do my usual sunday routine thing of heading to bangsar for banana leaf and catch up with reading at SFC then heading to the pasar malam for some grocery shopping. *sigh* oh well, still managed to do soem grocery shopping in carrefour. man...sure hate those checkout counters....they take AGES to get through those payments....and somehow just have to cause a long queue ALL the time. isn't there something more efficient and systematic for this? oh yeah...not forgetting those dumb obnoxious dumb ass who can't read the BIG sign that says "less than 10 items". how inconsiderate could people be????

grocery shopping all doneand went home happy with what i bought. got home, unpacked and took me shower. aaaa.....nice and comfy....only thing missing is a nice relaxing massage and a good warm cuddle. *sigh* i can just dream dream dream.......... anyway, ended up entertaining myself with "Final Fantasy VII". thought i was just going to watch it for half an hour, but somehow ended up watching the whole DVD. by the time i finished, was already 1 something. GAWD! biological clock has really gone haywire...can't seem to sleep early nowadays. I NEED HELP!!

Monday
monday morning...monday blues.....hmm...just as i thought i could have a good week, my car player just died on me!! DAMMIT! spent half an hour sitting in the car outside the house trying to get it switched on. i feel so lost...deprived....shocked....whatever the word to describe it....i realised how dependent am i to audio....it's just so part of my life.....AARRGGHHH!! i need music!!!

not thing things changed for the better as i got into the office. everything just went downhill. just wasn't in the mood at all to talk to anyone...other than with regards to work that i HAVE to. got this and that settled and somehow the sms that woke me up on sunday morning just came to REALITY! had to come out with an execution plan for the sales person to sell to client, all thanks to my boss's bright idea! just as i thought i could end the day peacefully, boss just had to call me in for a discussion and expect magic to happen for this sudden last minute project. maybe i should change the title on my name card as "magician".

the frustration doesn't end there...what's worst, she confirmed on something with another media partner and then just dumped the whole pile of nonsense on me to solve without prior knowledge of what's going on. well, maybe i know a little here and there, but still, that's like being thrown into a tidal wave. what the hell!! and she's got the nerves to say "this is your project" when in the first place, all discussions that she had with this partner didn't include me! dammit!

got so damn frustrated, that i went over to the creative department to check on possibilities on executing the plan for halloween which was part of the sms that woke me up on sunday. not too good answers that i got from them.....but heck....can't force them to do something which they can't promise nor guarantee. finished discussion with them and headed up to the gym to work out my anger and frustration....and now back at my workstation. don't think that session of workout really helped in calming nor clearing me mind.

oh well, think i might as well get out of the office and try to chill.........*ssssiiiiiiggggghhhh*. time to got home and cook me some warm dinner....or maybe this meal could be supper.......oh whatever....