another day.....

here i go again....another day....another hour...another minute...another second....ANOTHER LONG LONG LONG DAY!! day's been filled with recee and meetings....can hardly put my mind back to working mode....don't even know where to start. gawd!! this so called "chill out" music that's playing on my YM is really killing me!! dammit! what is not killing me anyway.... *sigh*

how i wish for my comfy bed and just plonk down and just go to sleep. "here i go again on my own...." was just talking to one of my suppliers and he just had to point out the eye luggage that's so obvious....mind you...it's luggage...not eye bag!

when would there ever be a day where i don't have to start and end with adrenaline rush? maybe when i'm like REALLY and LITERALLY 6 feet under.

as i was having lunch after a recee in sg. wang with 2 other colleagues, we were having a discussion about work and company. she even pointed out that my boss relies so much on me to do everything. hey! that's nice...looks like there's at lease someone who sees and understand what i'm going through, rather than having a picture that i'm such a complainer with no reasons. :-) suddenly there's like so many options internally under the mother company that's available...but it's a matter of whether should i go for it or not....decisions decisions....why the hell are there so many decisions to be made?

oh well, back to work, i guess i'm just so bloody demotivated to actually give my best with work nowadays. i'm just so exhausted and stressed out. can't seem to focus and concentrate at all. somehow there'll always be some distraction that butts in and gets my mind off to something else....think i've got to figure out some kind of system of working more systematically. maybe i should start issuing forms for any inquiries.... ;-)

mind's gone off to figure out what to have for dinner.....hmm...home-made tuna burger? talking about that, so happy that my experiment with it turned out just F-I-N-E! :-) improvised it from a recipe that was published on "Men's Health", which was just grilled, but me made it into a tuna burger pate. mmm....guess i'll have that for dinner....or maybe it should be supper, by the time i get home anyway.

just been "invited" to go kill ourselves together by one of the producers....think i'll just go and do that....back in a moment.......................................................

aaahhhh......back from killing myself.....the balcony is such a communial area....glad that i managed to help my colleague in her search for those food stuff to shoot for her programme. ah....another good deed....*ding* 1 point added to myself...... weather can really just change in an instant nowadays....just about 6 something, it was all bright and sunny that i can see the reflection on my monitor....10 minutes later when i stepped out to "kill" myself, it was pouring cats and dogs.

mmm....dug into a pack of mamee....gosh! taste sooooo goood!! or maybe i'm just so darn hungry. man..the content of it has shrunk so much compared to the days when i was still back in primary school....well, can't complaint much....still taste good. i'm just going about digging whatever that's edible and stuffing it into my mouth.....i'm such a garbage bin.

hmm....think maybe i should stop bitching about work and bitch about something else. this is the second day that i feel so deprived without any music other than the sound of my car's engine while driving to work.....and back home... :-( think i'll try to replace it with the MD player that i got ages ago...hopefully it's still functioning and is compatible with the changer that's already installed. *cringe* how it just gets on my nerves that people could own a car but don't take care of it!! they should be punished!!

think it's about time for me to pack up and get my arse off my workstation and head on home....but before that...ehehe....distraction....going to drown myself with a round of "Need for Speed Underground 2"

ok...my battle with the computer is done...time to scoot off now......ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ